All I can say is that I have a lot to think about and a lot to do. I'm trying to make sure I do the right things and you know be responsible and shit. Which I am (most of the time)!
Stress level is getting too high and that's never a good thing even on a normal basis. Crohn's disease makes it less of a good thing. When I start to feel those twinges of pain and a loss of appetite that I know are caused by stress I know I have to gear down before I get to the point where it will be harder to turn it back. The funny thing is that most of the time I forget I have it because I've been in Remission for so long.
Intense anger kicks it into gear right away once the adrenaline wears off.
Food triggers will have me down and out for about 3 days but those are few and far between.
Stress...well that's the tricky one but I usually have a handle on that one too. I don't freak out or lose my mind. I'll get annoyed and push it aside, I accept what's happening and try not to let it weigh me down...wait I don't let it I pretty much refuse. Hold me back in some cases temporarily but not weigh me down. When there's that one person you REALLY want to talk to but you can't because they don't know what to say or they just don't care and if they don't then why do you want to talk to them?
So that's what's going to happen.
As the days rolled on I thought alot about my last post and the Beast and about how I said it was full, which it is... I was imagining what it would look like because the tattoo thing stuck with me and I almost think that acknowledging it is what made the twinges start as I filtered through everything it's full of ...and there is too much...crap. I can completely understand how people snap.
I laugh alot, I have good days and quiet ones I very rarely have bad days. Bad moments, sure but who doesn't? I have plans and goals and responsibilities along with every other person and you never realize how many little things can build up and how big things blow up when you don't even notice it's there!
So that being said I will still be here every week although my posts might not start off the week because being here...helps believe it or not.
One day someone will tell me "It's all going to be ok."
I also never realized how many times I say that to other people.
Hmmm...
Ok get out of here.
See Ya!
S
Stress level is getting too high and that's never a good thing even on a normal basis. Crohn's disease makes it less of a good thing. When I start to feel those twinges of pain and a loss of appetite that I know are caused by stress I know I have to gear down before I get to the point where it will be harder to turn it back. The funny thing is that most of the time I forget I have it because I've been in Remission for so long.
Intense anger kicks it into gear right away once the adrenaline wears off.
Food triggers will have me down and out for about 3 days but those are few and far between.
Stress...well that's the tricky one but I usually have a handle on that one too. I don't freak out or lose my mind. I'll get annoyed and push it aside, I accept what's happening and try not to let it weigh me down...wait I don't let it I pretty much refuse. Hold me back in some cases temporarily but not weigh me down. When there's that one person you REALLY want to talk to but you can't because they don't know what to say or they just don't care and if they don't then why do you want to talk to them?
So that's what's going to happen.
As the days rolled on I thought alot about my last post and the Beast and about how I said it was full, which it is... I was imagining what it would look like because the tattoo thing stuck with me and I almost think that acknowledging it is what made the twinges start as I filtered through everything it's full of ...and there is too much...crap. I can completely understand how people snap.
I laugh alot, I have good days and quiet ones I very rarely have bad days. Bad moments, sure but who doesn't? I have plans and goals and responsibilities along with every other person and you never realize how many little things can build up and how big things blow up when you don't even notice it's there!
So that being said I will still be here every week although my posts might not start off the week because being here...helps believe it or not.
One day someone will tell me "It's all going to be ok."
I also never realized how many times I say that to other people.
Hmmm...
Ok get out of here.
See Ya!
S
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