The Beast On My Shoulder

Hello Lovelies!

I'm back from Vacation and as usual when I'm on Vaca I'm on it from everything. I use Facebook minimally, I disappear from the Twitterverse, Blogging and Instagram...well Instagram gets used a bit but besides that it's like going dark.

Let there be light again!

It was a relaxed week. I rode when I could and still have issues that I'm frustrated with myself over though. I accomplished a few things that I was determined to do around the house while I was off but there is so much more to do and organize. I got my tattoo done so that makes #5, My PS4 got some usage as my gamer girl kicked in and with Choo in Edmonton on that weekend I slept smack in the middle of the bed and ate Sherbet for dinner, in bed, right out of the tub while binge watching Scream and Dominion and it was GLORIOUS!

My first thought was just to post on Tuesday and get it out there but instead I decided to wait and fill up with my thoughts with...wait for it...FALL! Yes I know there are still a couple of weeks left of Summer but Fall is my favourite season and the weather has been changing, the air has been changing, kids going back to school everything screams Autumn with coziness and comfort foods and not waking up in the middle of the night covered in sweat.

Stop

Let's pull to a screeching halt now...

I started this post around 2 weeks ago, Now I could have hit the backspace button but it's Monday and so far kind of awful so I decided screw it, why go back?

I hadn't realized that it had been so long since I was here last. Last Monday I was home sick and stuck in bed for 2 days. My laptop was beside me but I had no energy to make my brain or fingers work. So now feeling better with Fall coming only 3 days away my nesting season has kicked into gear. Fall is when I feel crafty and comforted and with the ups and downs my family has had in the past few weeks I have decided to fully throw my attention into projects that I have yet to finish as well as those I have to begin. ( I think I say this every year. )

I've been annoyed and angry, emotional and heartbroken and with each occurrence I find more and more that I have to tell myself to breathe, let it go and not hang onto it.

Ok so I can do that but it feels like those emotions of late are just kind of left hanging there like a hazy cloud right behind me, not in my way but just there. Maybe that's because I haven't been filtering them through adequately? On some days I feel a bit lost, like I've lost control of some inner beast that keeps me level. I call it a beast because it takes on the things that I have no control over or have to move on from... and although it consumes those stresses, it lives to protect me from them. ( Sorry writers imagination. No less true though. )

Having Chrons' Disease taught me early on that stress is the worst thing for me so over the course of my life it's been fed alot and in turn I've stayed in remission.

After a weekend of putting things into perspective and organizing the day to day I feel back on track and yet I had no real idea of how much stuff I actually have to do! Thank goodness I have help for the big stuff.

That brings me back to today and it's raining and I was wet, late for work and there was no coffee but that's over, coffee in hand and words written has made me content for now.

While I'm feeling confident and determined to put everything together, my beast sits on my shoulder curled up with one eye open waiting to be fed some more, but it's gotten fat over the past few weeks so I think a diet is in order.

And I think I just found my next tattoo...

Have a great week guys!

See Ya
S

To Web MD or Not Web MD? Don't just don't!

Lovelies!

How was your weekend? Was it rainy and stormy preventing you from going out and doing the things you wanted to? Mine was and that didn't leave much to say here.

So all of last week I believe was fabulous until the weekend and we got screwed. And as I looked out of my of window...guess who's back! Oh ya the sun...

Quick question...How many of you Web diagnose yourselves? I'm guilty of it and in some cases it helped me and in others it horrified me and then thoughts of my impending painful death would occur.

For example, a while back I noticed that one of my fingernails looked odd like it was separated from the nail bed ( if only I had thought about that before looking online ) I got worried and looked it up...never do that... all of a sudden images, not a web diagnosis but images of horrible fungus' infected digits appeared before my eyes ( heart beats faster ) I swear for about an hour my head swirled thinking I had to go to the doctor and get needles or amputate my finger until my memory kicked in.

I have long nails and always have. Have you ever opened a can or a box with long nails? Sometimes the force you use pulls the nail away from the skin resulting in drum-roll please...

Separation from the nail bed! A sigh of relief was heard!

Lo had one of her tattoos touched up on Friday by the Awesome Aaron at Sinister Skin my Parlor of choice and yesterday she messaged me and said that she had blisters in the new ink and asked if that was normal. I had no idea! I've never had a touch up and who knows if it was normal so before I told her just to call the shop and ask, I asked the Internet...and again...NEVER DO THAT!

Images of blistery infected skin under ink and possible causes made me decide that no one is EVER touching any of my already inked skin so do it right the first time! Only because I didn't know what caused it. I turns out that after calling and doing what they told her to which was simply to stop putting lotion on it, the blisters went down and she felt relief!

I've had friends that use the Internet to figure out if something is seriously wrong with their children and then they rush them off only to find out that, gee whiz the Internet was wrong!

You know what really scares me though? There was a Walk in Clinic on the other side of our town and it was the only one for a long time so lots of people used it in a pinch, but the doctor there would enter the room...
with a laptop...
and Web diagnose his patients!

Making me wonder if that's where he learned to be a doctor in the first place. Sometimes it can be helpful you know by giving you suggestions on what could possibly be wrong, some not so fatal and hard core theories so be careful.

Seeing as I completely digressed from where this post was supposed to go in the first place I think I'm done for this week guys. I'll go back to looking out the window at the Sun...and cursing it for being here now and tormenting me.

Have a great week!
See Ya
S